I haven’t been feeling good about my body lately and seeing my self from my Vlogs with that extra meat on the side makes me wanna kill myself. You know I’ve only said that because I’ve just seen pictures of me like 5 years ago and I was not as thick as a cow before. Now I am feeling really uneasy these days. I know I can do better than this, I can shape up…what’s funny is that I am convincing myself right here, right now when I am just lying here on my bed all afternoon feeling this pain on my stomach for eating too much Japanese Fish Cake topped with chocolate ice cream yesternight. Horrible.
Philippine culture about body shaming is getting worst and worst each day. It’s really not a good culture because when someone sees you for the first time in a long time, they wouldn’t just ask “How are you?” instead they will say “Hoy, nanambok lagi ka?” (Hey! Why are you getting fat?) Yeah, that’s really true and it doesn’t make you feel good about seeing that person, if you know what I mean.
This culture should stop. It does make you feel worst about yourself. LOL. Why am I writing about this? Because I don’t have anything to talk about, that’s why.